xok Clothing is clothes made by music fans, for music fans. Music is our passion. After years of taking from the music scene, we wanted to give something back. That's why we formed xok Clothing. We want to provide our friends and friends-to-be with clothing that represents who they are and where they came from. No music style is excluded. We welcome anyone and everyone.
xok Clothing is committed to building not only the local music scene, but also the national scene through band sponsorship and concert support. When you buy xok, you're helping to improve and ensure a good long life for the music scene.
Along with our passion for music, we have a passion for life. We believe that life is too short to be depressed. Part of our mission at xok Clothing is to help youth with depression to realize that there are things worth experiencing in life. Music and friendship are two of the things that have kept us going over the years. We want to spread that message to everybody.
At xok Clothing we sponsor local and national bands. We get the word out about music that we love. We design all our own clothing and make compilation cds.
A Message from xok Matt
It's been raining.
All day.
ALL WEEK.
Almost all month.
I guess you could say it's been raining in my head and heart too.
I've been so down lately, and I can't think of why. I bought Guns N Roses Use Your Illusion 1 today....totally fueled the gut wrench I had going on.
It's another day when I get so depressed that nothing other than a miracle can pull me out of it.
I feel alone, empty, used, scoffed at, drugged up, smashed in, freezing cold, smoldering and steaming, and so far away from the spot I want to be that I may as well be examining the toenails on a ladybug. Seeing my kids usually helps, but today it didn't.
Seeing my wife also helps, but again, nothing. Being alone feels so horrible and loving, and I'm so used to it, I wrap up in my misery like it's a warm blanket, smiling while I cry.
Star Wars usually helps too. I have been more excited to see Episode III than any one human should be to see any movie, or even any thing. And yet, today, I am apathetic towards it. Towards everything.
I'm down, down, down, down, down.
And yet, to quote a recent movie, "hope remains".
I look at xok, and see how happy it makes people. I have to include myself, and J Money of course, because it's not just something we do for fun, but it's therapy for us as well. xok has brought me happiness, and I swim in that thought and apply it to todays pain.
You see, coping with depression, wether it be Manic/Bi-Polar like me, or just the regular good ol' fashion depression millions of people cope with; it doesn't matter. We ALL need tools to eliminate, not negotiate. I'm tired of allowing my depression to gain ground, even if it's only for a little while. Even if I invite it, I should have tools like pop-up blockers in place, preventing the enemy from entering me.
We can all fight it. I have learned to fight it from the inside out.
What do you love?
I love music. I love movies. I love writing music and stories and poetry. I love my friends. I love xok. I love myself, and I'm amazing.
I love my family too, but THEY don't depress me, and have nothing to do with why I'm often down. Nothing I love really does. It's intangeable. It's not something I can talk about, because I first have to understand what triggers it. But you know what? As long as I know how to cope, why does it matter what triggers it?
I think I need to be a little selfish. We all need to be a little selfish. Sometimes anyways. Depressed people are often so focused on their bad traits and helping/loving other people, we don't stop to love ourselves.
Today, I decided I am finally going to find a drummer and a bass player. I'm a waste without writing music. And I'm tired of writing alone. I have so much I need to vent, and so much I need to say, and if I don't say it in the ways I need, and the ways I know how, then I will not be well inside. So I'm doing it.
I'm also FINALLY releasing my book - aiming to be able to sell it at Warped Tour. It's gritty. It's real. It's something I've been dying to release, and now I'm on it.
I miss someone. I miss them a lot. Thinking about them hurts me to the bone, and then the marrow, and then the fibers of my soul.
But I'm tired of missing them. Nothing can be done about it now, and I KNOW that. I'm stopping the pain today. I'm doing it because I deserve to be happy, even if being happy sometimes feels scary. USUALLY feels scary.
Please. If you suffer, REALLY suffer, from a depression that threatens to overtake you like the Empire does the Rebellion, BE THE REBELLION! WIN! Do NOT let it beat you. Message me, or J Money, and tell us how we can help, or just vent it all out. Tell us that you are going to kick ass, and that you are going to help yourself, and then one day, others. It's what xok is all about. And I love it. I love J Money, and I love the fact that one day we will be able to reach enough kids to make a big difference.
So, if you are down, fight back. Pledge againt it, and spread the word. xok has got your back. Come see us at Warped Tour and share a hug with us. We'll talk about how we beat our demons and we'll relish in the sheer fact that we all rock.
Go to Superjoymusic.com and register in the forums. There is a section where people can talk about serious emotions and problems and get advice and sympathy/empathy from others. It's a great tool, and it's helped many already.
Much love, rule your world.
xok Matt
xok Clothing is committed to building not only the local music scene, but also the national scene through band sponsorship and concert support. When you buy xok, you're helping to improve and ensure a good long life for the music scene.
Along with our passion for music, we have a passion for life. We believe that life is too short to be depressed. Part of our mission at xok Clothing is to help youth with depression to realize that there are things worth experiencing in life. Music and friendship are two of the things that have kept us going over the years. We want to spread that message to everybody.
At xok Clothing we sponsor local and national bands. We get the word out about music that we love. We design all our own clothing and make compilation cds.
A Message from xok Matt
It's been raining.
All day.
ALL WEEK.
Almost all month.
I guess you could say it's been raining in my head and heart too.
I've been so down lately, and I can't think of why. I bought Guns N Roses Use Your Illusion 1 today....totally fueled the gut wrench I had going on.
It's another day when I get so depressed that nothing other than a miracle can pull me out of it.
I feel alone, empty, used, scoffed at, drugged up, smashed in, freezing cold, smoldering and steaming, and so far away from the spot I want to be that I may as well be examining the toenails on a ladybug. Seeing my kids usually helps, but today it didn't.
Seeing my wife also helps, but again, nothing. Being alone feels so horrible and loving, and I'm so used to it, I wrap up in my misery like it's a warm blanket, smiling while I cry.
Star Wars usually helps too. I have been more excited to see Episode III than any one human should be to see any movie, or even any thing. And yet, today, I am apathetic towards it. Towards everything.
I'm down, down, down, down, down.
And yet, to quote a recent movie, "hope remains".
I look at xok, and see how happy it makes people. I have to include myself, and J Money of course, because it's not just something we do for fun, but it's therapy for us as well. xok has brought me happiness, and I swim in that thought and apply it to todays pain.
You see, coping with depression, wether it be Manic/Bi-Polar like me, or just the regular good ol' fashion depression millions of people cope with; it doesn't matter. We ALL need tools to eliminate, not negotiate. I'm tired of allowing my depression to gain ground, even if it's only for a little while. Even if I invite it, I should have tools like pop-up blockers in place, preventing the enemy from entering me.
We can all fight it. I have learned to fight it from the inside out.
What do you love?
I love music. I love movies. I love writing music and stories and poetry. I love my friends. I love xok. I love myself, and I'm amazing.
I love my family too, but THEY don't depress me, and have nothing to do with why I'm often down. Nothing I love really does. It's intangeable. It's not something I can talk about, because I first have to understand what triggers it. But you know what? As long as I know how to cope, why does it matter what triggers it?
I think I need to be a little selfish. We all need to be a little selfish. Sometimes anyways. Depressed people are often so focused on their bad traits and helping/loving other people, we don't stop to love ourselves.
Today, I decided I am finally going to find a drummer and a bass player. I'm a waste without writing music. And I'm tired of writing alone. I have so much I need to vent, and so much I need to say, and if I don't say it in the ways I need, and the ways I know how, then I will not be well inside. So I'm doing it.
I'm also FINALLY releasing my book - aiming to be able to sell it at Warped Tour. It's gritty. It's real. It's something I've been dying to release, and now I'm on it.
I miss someone. I miss them a lot. Thinking about them hurts me to the bone, and then the marrow, and then the fibers of my soul.
But I'm tired of missing them. Nothing can be done about it now, and I KNOW that. I'm stopping the pain today. I'm doing it because I deserve to be happy, even if being happy sometimes feels scary. USUALLY feels scary.
Please. If you suffer, REALLY suffer, from a depression that threatens to overtake you like the Empire does the Rebellion, BE THE REBELLION! WIN! Do NOT let it beat you. Message me, or J Money, and tell us how we can help, or just vent it all out. Tell us that you are going to kick ass, and that you are going to help yourself, and then one day, others. It's what xok is all about. And I love it. I love J Money, and I love the fact that one day we will be able to reach enough kids to make a big difference.
So, if you are down, fight back. Pledge againt it, and spread the word. xok has got your back. Come see us at Warped Tour and share a hug with us. We'll talk about how we beat our demons and we'll relish in the sheer fact that we all rock.
Go to Superjoymusic.com and register in the forums. There is a section where people can talk about serious emotions and problems and get advice and sympathy/empathy from others. It's a great tool, and it's helped many already.
Much love, rule your world.
xok Matt
